Dear Admin
I am based in the United Kingdom and a member of the Redeemed Christian Church of God here in the UK.
I am a
24-year-old Nigerian girl. I have lived in the UK for over five years,
running into my 6th year already. However, as it is generally held,
“life is not always smooth and straight” I understand that life, most of
the time is full of ‘zig and zag’ just like it’s characterized with ups
and downs. My story is not different after all.
I have had my good times too, and I consider this time as my most trying moment.
I have had my good times too, and I consider this time as my most trying moment.
I am writing this
note, not exactly because I regret my action of taking full control of a
married Pastor, but because I have sensed something that is really not
going to work for me in the most positive way, if I keep this pregnancy.
I don’t regret my action because I understand that pastors too are
human beings, and have the same feelings like the rest of us. He slept
with me, got me impregnated; so what?
However, a little
of the background will give you an insight into how it all started. I
understand that as human beings, we cannot cheat nature. I’m one of the
Choristers in the church, and there is this magnet that pulls the pastor
and I together. It is like a magnetic force. However, he had explained
to me in the most pathetic way one day on how the wife had starved him
of s**x for months all in the name of spirituality. He only said that
passively anyway. He also complained bitterly, while I listened with
superlative attention on how the wife hardly ever satisfy him on bed. I
actually wanted to satisfy him, as I’m such an emotional and considerate
person. I am very sure God won’t judge me negatively because of my kind
gesture. I only tried to satisfy a man who was dying of hunger, he was
been starved of sex and I had to leave spirituality behind to get him
satisfied.
I remember how it
all started, and like a Hollywood movie, the scenes reeled from one to
the other and we had our fun in different hotels after every church
meeting. I must always wait for the Pastor who will convey me to my
house. After all, he is a pastor, and no one would suspect that any
‘dirty’ romance was going on between us. He confessed that I had made
him feel like a woman, and I was just proud of myself. I will always
node in exhilaration knowing very well that if I can satisfy another
man, then I can satisfy my man. This is something every young lady
should be proud of. I am not trying to patronize my action, but only
being reasonable about some sensitive s**xual matters.
Yes, we did, and
since then, I have been excommunicated from the church. In fact, the
whole thing remained secret until he got me impregnated, and I
confronted him for an ab**rtion. To my consternation, he refuted my
suggestion; he wanted me to keep the baby. I had moved against it. I had
given him reasons why I shouldn’t keep the baby. I don’t want to
jeopardize my dream of getting married at the age of 26 which is just
less than a year. I told him that I must get rid of the baby. But he has
vowed to sue me if I do. He is happy that at least what he had waited
for endlessly since he got married in 2000 has come to fruition as God
has finally opened the doors through me. Yes, he never had a child since
he got married, and age is really not on his side. I can’t get his
words off my head; “ I want this baby like yesterday” he said.
This disagreement
has put me in the public glare today as my close friends whom I
divulged the situation to, had reported the matter to the church
committee, and I have since been excommunicated. Everybody talks about
me as if I have done something so strange. My concern really is not
about what people are saying but to get a little piece of your advice on
whether I should keep the baby against my wish, or go for an abortion. I
know what I want but I still need your advice in order to justify the
action I’m about to take. In the next five days, I should be able to
take a major decision. Thank you for publishing my story.
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